High Five for May 4

It was definitely easy to find 5 great things about this week!

1.) In a spur of the moment decision, I bought these cowboy boots! I was in Philly with a friend and she was actually looking for a pair of cowboy boots and I went inside with her, not interested. The second I saw these boots, I knew they had to be mine, even though this is totally not my style. They called to me and I had to have them. And now I do! I am now totally ready for Oklahoma (should we end up back there!)

2.) I bought this cute little book! I am actually reading the book this is based on, The Happiness Project, and this book is like a little side project, if someone wants to start their own Happiness Project. It is a 5 year journal, but there is only enough room for a few short sentences. It is the perfect amount of space to describe what I did that day, and see the difference in the days over the years. There one page per day, with 5 sets of paragraphs, so that I can see what I did on that day over the years. I think everyone should have one!

3.) My husband sent me a beautiful bouquet of flowers this week. He is in Spain right now, so it was very nice to receive these. Even though they are no substitute for the man, himself. They sure do smell nice :)

4.) My friend Jess, an aspiring photographer, asked me if she could take pictures at my wedding and I said OF COURSE!! She gave me the disk of all the pictures the other day and they are beautiful. Here is an example of her work. If anyone is interested in a photographer to capture those special moments, let me know and I will give you her contact info!

5.) I'm in CT for the weekend and I went out to dinner tonight with my sister and my parents to this AMAZING All-You-Can-Eat sushi restaurant. The food was amazing, and for only about $20 per person, it was totally worth it. I absolutely love sushi!

Hope you all had a great week, as well!

A couple months ago, a fellow military wife shared a link on her blog to From My Grey Desk. On Fridays, this blogger makes a list of her five favorite things from that week. I happened to think that was a very neat idea and yet I wondered how a person could actually find 5 different favorite things every week. I decided to try that for this week and after the horrible day on Tuesday, I couldn't imagine finding anything happy about this week.

The thing is...if you don't want to find the positive in anything, then you won't. If you decide that you WILL find 5 great things about a week, you realize that they have been there all along. And here are mine:

1.) I was going to wait until it was my turn to check out the book from the library, but I decided to cave and download Fifty Shades of Grey onto my Kindle. I'm only on chapter two, so nothing sexy has happened yet, but I am very interested to see what all these women have been chatting about!

2.) There is a trail by my parents house called a "Rail Trail," which means it was converted from an actual railway track. It's about 2.3 miles from end to end and it's actually a beautiful path with woods on either side and during a 2 week period in the summer, wild berries grow along the path and are absolutely delicious. My mom and I took the family dog and walked it from end to end, a total of over 4 miles. It was exhausting, but a good time :)

3.) Dan manages to buy a ridiculous amount of clothes from Kohl's and the last time he went, he got $20 in Kohls cash, which he gave me (because he loves me!). I went to Kohl's this week and bought a super cute dress, which I am dying for an excuse to wear! And yes, it is from the Lauren Conrad collection.

4.) I took my third Piloxing class this week! It's exhausting, but a lot of fun! I love how fast paced it is, as well as empowering and upbeat. It is a Pilates class mixed with Boxing and I recommend it to everyone!

5.) My dad had taken my wedding bouquet and dried it out for me! I had completely forgotten about it until I was home this past weekend and he showed it to me! I wish there was some magical way I could have perfectly preserved the beautiful bouquet forever and ever, but alas. I'm not exactly sure if these will be able to last like this in the open, so I may see if I can find an appropriately shaped shadow box to preserve it in.

I look forward to finding the positive in next week!

February, March, April

In my last post back at the end of February, I was still working at my job and counting down the days until my very last. I worked at the manufacturing plant for 8 months and it took me about 6 months to have my epiphany: I won’t be happy going from administrative job to administrative job. The question then became, Well, Sam, what do you want to do that will make you happy? In a very soft, timid voice, I heard the words form in the back of my head: Guidance Counselor. Since then, that voice has been steadily becoming louder and more prominent in my head, and has now started spreading to my heart. I can keep trying to convince myself that it isn’t the right decision, that it’s too hard to go that route being in the military, that I won’t be able to help anyone and, therefore, I will fail. Mostly that last one. But now that those 17 letters have taken up space in my heart, it has been a lot tougher to ignore them. My question is now: How the hell do I start this process? I will report back on that when I have an answer to that question and have formed my next one.

In the book world, I convinced myself that I really wanted to tackle a classic, and I knew which one it was going to be. I was very excited to check out Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy and it wasn’t a hard book to start. It is becoming a hard book to continue reading, though. It has nothing to do with the story, I am very interested in what is happening so far. And that language isn’t too…classic-y. I know it is practically sacrilege in the world of literature to say that I can’t get through a classic novel because I have a hard time navigating the story through all the curves and twists of the classic language. But it is true. I have difficulty enjoying the story if I can’t relate to the words and dialogue, no matter how much I may relate to the story itself. Example: Little Women. I fell in love with the story when I was a kid, because the version I read was written for kids. I then fell in love with the movie. But when I tried to read the original version, I found that I wasn’t loving the characters as much as I know that I do and I didn’t like that. I have since returned Anna Karenina to the library because I realized I could download it for free on my Kindle and not have to worry about renewing my library book. I truly hope to finish it before the movie comes out.

While at the library returning Anna Karenina, I picked up Celebrity in Death by J.D. Robb, the new book in one of my favorite series. Blew through that in a week and then picked up Explosive Eighteen by Janet Evanovich, a new book in a different series., and finished that in a few days. I highly recommend both!

In the meantime, I finally caved and bought Fifty Shades of Grey by E.L James for my Kindle, instead of waiting on the long list for it to be my turn to get it from the library.

I look forward to reporting, on Friday, my favorite things about this week J

What Happened To The Best Of Me

I was slightly disappointed in The Best of Me by Nicholas Sparks. I'm not saying that I thought it was a bad book, by any means, but I just found it way too predictable. I love a good twist, and while many people would say that there was one, I found the "twist" way too obvious. Now, I am fully aware that I tend to make judgements about the books I am reading based on many different emotional and personal factors and not on the actual quality of the writing, but I feel like that's how many people base their opinions, anyway. I know that many die-hard Sparks fans would disagree with me here, but I just never felt fully invested in the story line or the characters, which makes me sad considering how incredibly connected I have felt to many of his other characters (especially Noah and Allie). I never really cared about Amanda or Dawson, didn't appreciate the journeys that they had to take, nor did I think either of them tried hard enough at anything. Harsh, I know. But it's my blog.

At any rate, when I finished reading, I decided to go back to Oprah's list. Admittedly, I did take the safe route, choosing a book that I had already read and knew I would like to read

again. I picked She's Come Undone by Wally Lamb, which I had read in high school. After reading it again, I have to say, I definitely do not remember it being that depressing and heartbreaking. Maybe it didn't seem that way to me back when all I did was read, write, and watch that kind of material, but all I just wanted this girl's life to get better! And it was just blow after blow, heartbreak after heartbreak, it was just so difficult to see how much one person can endure (although after reading Unbroken, this was really just a ride on a carousel, comparatively). Don't get me wrong, though, it's a great book and I definitely recommend not only the book, but also the author (I've read his other books and they are equally as powerful). But I definitely picked my next book with care...something not as intense...something a little more carefree. Enter Sarah Dessen.

I just picked up What Happened To Goodbye by Sarah Dessen, my favorite young adult author

and the only one whose books I still read, last night. And I just finished it about 5 minutes ago. Yes, it was a good book, but the only reason why I was able to read it so quickly was because my boss stuck me down at the engraving machine for the last 2 days at work. All I do is program the machine to print new tags and then I had nothing else to do but sit there and read until it finished printing and I had to reset it. I spent last week and this week training my replacement at work and my boss wanted to see her do everything alone, without my help, so he stuck me on these machines. It really hasn't been to terrible, since I was basically getting paid to read all day, which was fantastic, but I still have one more week left in this soul-sucking environment. I wish I was exaggerating. But that is one of the many reasons why I quit. But I digress.

Ridiculously excited that I have the whole weekend to NOT be at work, I will head to the library tomorrow to choose my next book. Not sure what it will be yet, but I am quite excited at the possibilities.

On Writing

I have always wanted to write a book.

Back in high school, I wanted to actually write a memoir. I knew that I wouldn't have been able to really start doing that until later in life, since nothing had really happened to me yet at the young, naive age of 16. But I started compiling all of my various journal entries in preparation. My life from 6th grade through my freshman year of college fills up 48 pages...almost a little novella! Excluding entries that I dubbed "not memoir material," I combed through my LiveJournal, DeadJournal, MindSay, Xanga, and my two written journals (which I typed) and organized them all so they they would read in chronological order. It is basically the whole history of me, which may seem pretty neat, but I actually try not to look through that document...I wasn't the happiest of teenagers and it's hard to read. My husband has never read any of it, but he hates when I skim through it, which I only tend to do when I'm feeling lost.

I have since changed my mind, I definitely do not want to write a memoir. But I think it would be fun to write a fiction novel, and as many authors do, include parts of my life in it, including the journal entries. Maybe it will be a young adult book, and my diary entries can help another lost teenage soul. I would hope to be someone like Sarah Dessen, who's young adult books I still read because they have an amazing ability to still make sense in my life. (They are all amazing and I highly recommend them!)

I used to write poems in high school and I loved writing them. Most of them rhymed, because I loved the idea of manipulating words to fit that parameter and have it still make sense and flow perfectly. I remember exactly when I stopped, it was before I finished the poem "A Heartbeat." I couldn't seem to figure out how to finish it so I didn't write anything for a while. I believe it was one of my high school boyfriends that inspired me enough to finish it, and so I did. But I never wrote anything after that. It's like I just ran out of ideas.

Maybe I should take a creative writing course. I wanted to in college, but I never did. (If I donated a nickel every time I thought or said the phrase "I wanted to, but never did," I would be dirt poor.) I am so terrified of failing that I never try anything. And I'm here to tell you, it is a sad way to live life. The best thing I ever did was fall in love and believe in my husband's love enough to know that I wanted to spend my life with him. I could have done what I did with every relationship I had previously and run away because I was terrified of having them realize that I wasn't good enough for them. As it turns out, I'm pretty sure I really could do anything I wanted as long as I put my whole heart in it, as I did Dan.

As for writing a book? Maybe someday. I have one page written, and it is actually a scene in a bathroom. I bought this little book that is basically a writer's muse and it has little ideas, stories, pictures, words, to help a writer along. And one of them told me to write a scene that takes place in the bathtub, where the character thinks about his/her life. And I was able to see my scene perfectly and I am pretty happy with it. I just don't know where she goes from there, I don't know what her story is yet, which is why I haven't written anymore. But I think about her a lot, which I guess is a good sign.

I would still love to write a book.

Something Not-So-Completely Different

So as of now officially being a little family of 2, I've decided to take this blog in only a slightly different direction. I still intend to work my way through Oprah's Book list (and as most of you have seen, many other books as well) but because my life seems to always be going in very interesting directions, I thought I might like to spend some time talking about that, as well. I absolutely love reading about the lives of the people that I know, and hopefully people will feel the same about us! I've changed a couple of details about this site: My "About Me" section now reflects the new direction of the blog and I also changed the URL of the blog...because having numbers in it was bothering me and I wanted it to be a little more personal.

So, about the books I've read since we've last met:

Last we spoke, I was in the middle of Sarah's Key by Tatiana de Rosnay and was just starting The Next Always by Nora Roberts.

I highly recommend both! For very different reasons, as they are v

ery different genres. Sarah's Key was very powerful and brought to light an interesting, albeit devastating chapter of World War II. The Next

Always is a great read also, bringing to light the power of love and family as Nora Roberts always does. And someday I will get down to the bookstore she owns in Boonsboro, MD called "Turn The Page."

After finishing The Next Always (and putting The Best of Me by Nicholas Sparks back on my requested list at the library), I downloaded a book to my Kindle that my aunt recommended titled Unbroken: A World War II Story of Survival, Resilience, and Redemption by Laura Hillenbrand. First: I do not recommend reading in on a Kindle. There are a few footnotes in each chapter, but the footnotes take us to the end of the chapter...and on a Kindle, my choice is either to click click click through the pages to the end to see where the asterix leads and then click click click all the way back, or just wait until I reach the end of the chapter and have then mostly forgotten what the note is referring to. And since every sentence of this book is fascinating, I recommend holding the actual book

in your hands. I am only just about halfway through this amazing story and I am overwhelmed at the depth of Louis Zamperini's spirit. I highly HIGHLY recommend reading about his life because of the last half of this book are anything like the first half, then I would have recommended this book after the first couple of pages. If you're looking for a powerful biography to read, I hope you consider reading this one.

Freedom Hunger Sarah

Really need to start keeping track of the books I read...I think I will cover them all, but I've got that nagging feeling like I am forgetting one. I guess if I did forget one, then it must not have been a very memorable book! Anyway...

Since I had veered away from Oprah's list for a while, I decided to venture back in by choosing Freedom by Jonathan Franzen. It had gotten amazing reviews and I love longbooks. Unfortunately, I couldn't have possible found it more boring. I kept on trekking through it because I figured maybe it started a little slow and picked up in the middle. Well, I got close to 300 pages in and still nothing more fascinating than a brief affair. I figured I gave it as much attention as it deserved and dropped it off at the library. I absolutely hate not finishing a book, but I also hate wasting my time. I know it's a bestseller but I personally do not recommend it.

While I was reading Freedom, my husband was reading The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins. I had every intention of reading it after I finished Freedom, but then he bought me a Kindle! Now, I had mentioned in an earlier post that I was worried that technology was going to ruin the sanctity of the written word. I did read all three of the Hunger Games books on the Kindle (in less than I week I might add-those books were addicting!) But I find that while the Kindle is pretty cool, I will always love holding a book.

So I did pause my reading of Freedom (I was not sad about it) to read The Hunger Games, Chasing Fire, and Mockingjay. What an amazing journey! It was such an interesting concept and I enjoyed every minute of this trilogy. And while I do think it could have ended a little better, I would still highly recommend this trilogy to EVERYBODY. And make sure to read it before the movie comes out!!

After I finished that series, I went back to Freedom. And after dropping it off at the library a couple days later, I went back to the trunk of my car to see if I still had Sarah's Key by Tatiana de Rosnay back there. I did not, and instead found a novel that my aunt (well, she's basically my aunt) gave to me. It seemed like it would be more of a beach book, but I had nothing else to read at that moment, so I started reading it. And I was pretty much right. It was called The Rest of Her Life by Laura Moriarty. It was about this teenage girl who accidentally hits a girl with her car and kills her. It's told from the point of view of her mother and it is all about the mother-daughter relationship. It was a cute read, but I thought it ended rather abruptly. I wish there were another couple of chapters to really tie up all the ends, but I would definitely recommend it for a beach read.

After finishing that book, I searched the bookshelf at home to see if maybe I had brought Sarah's Key into the house, like a normal person. I really didn't want to go searching in my car again. And alas! There it was. So I tucked it in my purse and prepared to read it at lunch the next day. So far, I am really enjoying it! I like the way the chapters alternate from present day to the roundup in France. I am looking forward to seeing how they interconnect, although, I think I may need to put that on hold for a bit...

The worst thing happened. I had put 2 books on hold at the library: The Best of Me by Nicholas Sparks and The Next Always by Nora Roberts, two of my favorite authors. As I was on long waiting lists for both, I assumed they would come in at different times. Unfortunately, they did not! When I went to the library to today to pick up The Next Always, I saw, with dismay, that The Best of Me had also come in. What are the odds? So I stood there at the self-checkout counter...one book in my left hand, one book in my right. The worst. I knew I couldn't have both, since they were 2 week books and I would never be able to read them both in that time. So sadly, I returned The Best of Me to the bin and walked out with Nora. Because I just love her more. So back on the waiting list for Nicholas I go. So I will start reading The Next Always and return to Sarah's Key when I finish.

Happy Holidays!